... I've noticed again how life doesn't go like you want to. We all wish we would have a perfect life with having a perfect job and perfect families and friends surround you, but in reality it's just like wishing something that will never happen.

2 more concerts added to the list...

Rainie Yang and Luo Zhi Xiang (Show Luo)'s concerts... Within about 2 weeks I went to these 2 concerts and I enjoyed it!

Rainie's concert is more of a dreamland, fairytale, circus, girly kinda concert where as Xiao Zhu is more into the entertaining, dancing all out, powerful kind of concert.. I didn't really like Xiao Zhu before because his voice was not that good (that's my personal opinion..) but now he is an improved performer... his voice is much more stable and his dancing is much more powerful.. Rainie's voice has always been nice and stable.. I like it..

Sammie Cheung (did I spell it right?) was Xiao Zhu's guest.. I know who she is, but did not know any of her song... but she was not bad!! so energetic.. ^o^

Rainie's concert started out good, but towards the end was a bit bored.. its probably just me.. but yeah.. Jerry Yan was the guest.. eeeehhhhh.. no comment..

Xiao Zhu's concert was good through out.. it was spread out evenly.. which is good.. =D and also Da Lang was back!! yayy!!

anywhoo.. these past week Ling and I have been hunting for Mayday's concert tix.. and WE GOT IT!! row 1 65&66!! yayyy!! FIRST ROW BABY!! ^^

peace out!

These few days I've been back to my dancing mode.. I attend classes at HRC again! I'll attend their classes until Late November! YAYY!! I still have a lot of time to gain dancing knowledge! Lately I haven't try any Korean groups dances, except for After School's Bang, that song's dance just catches my attention.. In Taiwan, Beast's song Shock has been played over and over and over again.. made me curious about their dance because it looks nice... later I found out Prepix choreographed it.. no wonder its so cool!! so I checked youtube and saw the dance.. made me want to learn it, so I checked the slow one and mirrored.. now, my goal is to learn that dance.. ^^ I got the chorus memorized, it was not as hard as I thought. ^^ but I still need to smooth it out.. I tried to dance along some old Korean songs and I barely remember any of it.. aaaahhhh!! how can I not remember it?! I need to check their performances again.. *sigh*

Today, randomly, I'm in a photoshop-ing mood. and out of all pictures, I chose Ashin from Mayday picture.. hahahah~ this is the end result.. ^^

like it?? ^^

that's it then.. i'm just too random now.. :p

Since they will be giving out numbers at 5, Fany and I decided to go there at 11ish. The weather that day was cold and windy.. not sunny at all! We wait and wait more people came.. We got our food, Starbucks, and 暖暖包 that's all we need. Oh, and we also heard the man himself rehearsing inside. Envy him for not being in the cold. >.<

At 4pm the merchandise came and we decided to buy the whole bag that consist of T-shirt, lanyard, phone strap, pins, and poster. The bag itself has his picture on it. At 5.30ish they started giving out the numbers and we were number 105-109. So we went to get food after then go back there at 7ish? Because they started to line up the audiences according to the numbers. We got a good seat though, I was next to the stage.. The stage was nice, like a Fashion Show Runway which is not bad at all.

I totally forgot the order of songs for this concert.. It was 2 weeks ago.. hahahha~ or more? If its wrong, then sorry...~

The first song he sang was 第幾個100天.. Since the Piano is across from me, I can't see him playing the piano, but the voice was heavenly.. then he moved to the other end of the runway and sang his old song.. 翅膀 Wings.. I haven't heard him sing this song live... hahahha~ The first thing I noticed was the bling bling microphone, his bling bling belt, etc.. so bling bling that night.. hahahaha~ Then he sang 背對背擁抱... love that song!! ^^ during most of his slow songs, he stayed on the front of the runway.. so I just look at his back and look at the band, which I think is awesome by the way.. I'm liking the stage setting and the band.. ^^ Then he sang a more upbeat song... opened by a Saxophone player, which was breathtaking, since he held on the note for a while that took a long breath!! haahahha.. the song was 無法克制.. I've heard him sang this song while waiting outside.. he keep on practicing this song.. hahahaha~ the next song he sat down.. 一個有一個.. a slow jazzy song.. its either before or after, but he sang 豆漿油條... it was cute.. i think this song was more like in the beginning.. because he asked if anybody had soy bean milk.. somebody had it and he drank it and gave it back to the fans.. they were fighting over it.. hahahahah~ funny sight.. :p It started because a fan gave a doll that look like 油條.. hahahha~ I remembered he sang 小酒窩.. without the girl.. so the fans sang it... ^^ he's so interactive that night, which I like.. ^^

He went back to the piano and sang Rick Price's Heaven Knows.. seriously this song is an oldie but a good one!! I sang the whole time.. its either he sang it wrong or I remembered it wrong.. the lyrics I meant.. the guitarist kept on looking at me since probably I sang the whole time while moving to side to side with a big smile on my face!! hahahahaahha~ Then he also sang a compilations of Chinese songs.. the first one was 記得.. and something else.. can't remember, but 記得 was so good!! I really like that song.. he did it nicely.. ^^

He invited the girl that did the demo for 媽媽的娜魯娃, her name is 小愛.. she did great! she looked nervous, but she still did great.. JJ played the piano.. its a good combo.. then he sang 轉動 and 加油... which closed the night.. but then he came out again and wanted to make an MV for 媽媽的娜魯娃.. random huh?! then afterwards we had to go outside because there is an autograph signing.. He signed my poster, CD, and Lia's CD.. It was a good one.. He looked so happy during the signing.. so I just said, HAPPY early BIRTHDAY! and he said, thank you! its tomorrow! I replied saying, no, its in a couple of hours.. hahahaha~ he smiled.. then the FC did a quick happy birthday song.. btw, during the concert (forgot after what song) 2 fans went up and brought a cake.. and everybody sang the birthday song.. there are also videos of fans around the world and the launch of the website? I can't remember well.. there are a representative from each FC of JJ Federation and signed something..

the whole thing was fun.. and I liked it since its a small concert.. sitting down too!! ^^ hopefully before i go back to Indo, I am able to go to this kind of small concert again... ^^

its been a while i haven't done a report.. :p

I admit I never really forget him, the person whom I once loved, but I don't want him to keep coming into my head over and over again. I've been to two countries after I'm with him, trying to meet new friends and forget the past, but it still doesn't work. Once in a while, I would be at the verge of tears because I suddenly miss him. I don't want to completely forget him, I really don't, but I don't want to be like this, feeling sad and regretting of what I have done and what I have failed to do. Why am I writing this? Its because of the dream I had 2 nights ago.

The dream was I went to someone's house with somebody (I forgot, either family or friend), I know the person but I can't remember whose house it was, and there he was living in that house. I clearly remembered what he look like. In that dream we were talking and remembering the old times, just the two of us and try to swap numbers so that we can keep in touch, but I didn't have my phone and don't remember my phone number at that time. After I remember it, he was busy with others (it was like a small party of some sort) and I am basically trying to get his attention and all that.

I personally didn't want to wake up from that dream since I missed him too much.. Many people, including myself, have been saying, "Forget him. He's no use of remembering. He was a jerk!" Yeah I've said it to myself, but I was completely head over heels with this guy, no matter who I'll date or marry in the future, I know there will always be a part of him in my heart. I really wish him the best and have a great future. I wish he is okay and not hurt. If I can forget the past, I want to forget him and us, since I don't want to be sad and sappy out of nowhere.

2009 has been a good year for me.. I have been living in a new place, new experiences, new friends, new surrounding, basically.. new life.. I've been learning Chinese in Taipei for almost a year now and I am actually having fun. Yes, there are ups and downs, but every year there is always ups and downs.

I've met and said goodbye to many people.. I got a new family member... and I opened up my eyes more on Chinese music than before. I know a lot more artist and grew to like them a lot.. but I still haven't forget the love I have for Korean music though! It is still and probably always be there.. :p I've seen 3 Lee Hom's Campus Tour, Khalil Fong's Concert, Mayday Concert, Wilber Pan's Concert, SS501 Fan Meeting, and Super Junior-M Fan Meeting. Many huh? but I like it and enjoyed it... ^^ I don't want to count how many signings I've attended.. oh and by middle of this year I started to go to Bai Fen Bai recording... which has its ups and downs on the punctuality.. >.<

2009 is the first time I haven't spend my Xmas and New Year time with family... and the first time I've experience it while having classes.. awesome huh?! >.< but I missed them so much.. *sigh*

2010 is here.. and I don't have any resolution yet.. I just want my Chinese to improve a lot... I want to see more concert, to be exact JJ Lin, LeeHom, and maybe Mayday concert again.. hahahaha~ so yeah... don't really have any expectation for this year.. >.< never do actually :p