I admit I never really forget him, the person whom I once loved, but I don't want him to keep coming into my head over and over again. I've been to two countries after I'm with him, trying to meet new friends and forget the past, but it still doesn't work. Once in a while, I would be at the verge of tears because I suddenly miss him. I don't want to completely forget him, I really don't, but I don't want to be like this, feeling sad and regretting of what I have done and what I have failed to do. Why am I writing this? Its because of the dream I had 2 nights ago.

The dream was I went to someone's house with somebody (I forgot, either family or friend), I know the person but I can't remember whose house it was, and there he was living in that house. I clearly remembered what he look like. In that dream we were talking and remembering the old times, just the two of us and try to swap numbers so that we can keep in touch, but I didn't have my phone and don't remember my phone number at that time. After I remember it, he was busy with others (it was like a small party of some sort) and I am basically trying to get his attention and all that.

I personally didn't want to wake up from that dream since I missed him too much.. Many people, including myself, have been saying, "Forget him. He's no use of remembering. He was a jerk!" Yeah I've said it to myself, but I was completely head over heels with this guy, no matter who I'll date or marry in the future, I know there will always be a part of him in my heart. I really wish him the best and have a great future. I wish he is okay and not hurt. If I can forget the past, I want to forget him and us, since I don't want to be sad and sappy out of nowhere.